..Ben, Ben, Cal, Mel..

Moving on

Sigh.. Hello everyone.. Definitely owe everyone (especially u mel) for not blogging very often. Well first of all, i've been ill for a couple of days, suffering from this wretched fever that made me miss out on our last class spring cleaning, which happens to be the first considering how i skipped last year's. And ya secondly, my bro was home from army and i was denied of the comp once again for four full days. So many things have happened this year. Ugh.. all the memories. This phase of separation brings them back, doesn't it. All of us experienced it during our transition from primary to secondary school. And for some of us... bp...and I.. found it really hard to accept. How many promises did we make to people, stuff 'bout 'friends forever' and 'keep in contact'. It all seems so superficial right now, in this thought-provoking night. As bp puts it, a cycle it is. One that is necessary for old things having to make way for new ones. There just cant be enough space for our hearts to accomodate that many close friends. They just fade away like scattered sand, with the strength of passing wind.

Who i will miss most, are my classmates. Yea.. They're really a bunch of cool people. Yuk Lun, the ahem ever-responsible monitor who's so fun to bully and nice enough to be bullied by shameless people like me. Classmate for four years. Never was close to him. But it's just sad for the class split like this, even though we will still be in the same batch in rjc. I guess, it's just this strange sense of insecurity, or fear, of not being there to witness the changes in the people whom I know as my friends. Mervin Law? Lol.. He's just.. the funniest bravest coolest funnest most most most most most funky person alive. Pls my stomach hurts and mouth aches whenever he scolds the teachers in front of their faces. Can't imagine how bland and uninteresting life would have been without him. He aces everything.. every subject every hobby every game. Sometime somehow, he became someone whom i respected alot. Sobs yes if u're reading it -.- go away shoo.

Lol.. Ok it feels so weird to blog about such stuff on a public blog. Feels so choked and weird. Uh huh guess i gotta learn how to adjust to this, if i'm ever gonna contribute to this blog. Yea.. such a private thoughts are usually reserved for b3.. Nonsense bullshit reserved for suibianlo(which i have only posted twice, 1 of them didnt even count)... and f4? Haha.. I just.. really appreciate mel's efforts to ensure that we have something else that we can remember about each other. Sharing this common space for thoughts, hanging out at least in virtual space, trying our best to retain and exhibit who we are to each other, ensuring that we do not just.. disappear amongst the millions on earth.

Sigh.. alright. Night all..
Graduation time...
Gotta move on

ben stepped on your garbage at 1:16 AM