..Ben, Ben, Cal, Mel..

so many memories...

i filed in my apr and pdr today in the morning... and looked through my grades from sec 1 to 4. then i looked through all my certs, watched my farewell video and logged in a dream i had last night in my dream diary. tell u guys wat my dream was about first ba...

yuck a horrible nightmare... dreamt that i was taking chi o levels and left out the whole compre and summary section due to lack of time. sobz i still remember that i was thinking in the dream that there was a high possibility that iw ould fail o levels and have to retake chi in jc... horrible.

anyway so there's so many memories... things that have happened. photos, diaries, grades, documents... all a way to capture the memories and lock them. a window for us to look back into the past. all the great times... the sad times... interesting things we want to remember. if we can't remember a thing, wat of the past 16 years do we have with us now... some experience? some maturity? some skills?

wat about the thoughts, the emotions and other small details which we relished at the time but we have all forgotten now? seems such a pity... photos can only capture a frame in time... even words can't really describe everything... you can't input thoughts and emotions into videos. always wished for a thought recorder... something to just record everything you think of... cos sometimes words fail. but of course all these are all there are to relate to the past... i used to diary everyday but got so sick of it cos of the gross commitment. but when i read the everyday-for-2-months diary i've had i feel thankful i've gone through with the whole thing. learn so much from rereading... see how much i've changed and all that, and remember events again.

aiyar ranting on and on...

MeL stepped on your garbage at 12:40 PM