..Ben, Ben, Cal, Mel..

yay blog again...

yosh everyone... back home after a tiring round of badminton with my dad and his friends, and another fabulous dinner.

farewell... everyone's talking about it... and everyone's feeling down i guess. for me, i don't feel really touched or anything. perhaps like ben goh, i feel sad that the clas spirit is breaking up... for our class, we really had a very short time of realization of how strong we've bonded together and yea that's really kinda pity that we had such a short time to enjoy class. but then again... that's pretty much. perhaps if i had been to farewell, i'd feel differently, and maybe people reading this might feel that i'm cold doing this... and i wasn't there to witness what happened and so well not really in position to say anything about it. i know i've felt this way about people making stoopid comments sometimes... but this is the way i feel so...

i think yep we've shared memories in 4 years, and well yea we've made good friends. but friends will continue to keep in touch right? i mean for all the people we think we'll miss... well don't be sad that we're separating. take the effort to keep in touch with each other and maintain the friendship!! i mean of course it will be a bit more difficult, since we're all going to different classes... but if we can't even bother to cross the barriers, we're just gonna drift apart... then maybe should question ourselves what kind of relationship we even had if it can't survive the downs in life. if we treasure the people around us, we should work to keep as friends. it's a controversial line of thought... maybe some of u agree some don't but it's just what i have to say...

sometimes i wonder that if we didn't know so much about each other will we still be friends? when we separate and change... will not knowing these details in each other's lives put a barrier? when we go out with each other... maybe we won't have any common things to talk about anymore i don't know. i have a friend elson, who lasted from all the way from p1 till now... our friendship has lasted through separation since p4 (when i became gep) until now... and we still go out together and treasure each other. our lives are really totally different... but i guess we still find the time to get together and talk and have fun and keep the relationship going. but of course there's a gap... we can't talk about every single thing... i can't bitch about teachers to him... and he can't talk about his friends with me cos we don't know who all these people are. i mean like... i play dota and he likes jamming... totally different hobbies and lifestyles.

but now we have a blog... esp the 4 of us cos this is a joint blog. many people will be rather surprised to know that i have a blog cos i once thot that blogs were really stoopid... i mean like if u wanna keep a diary then keep a diary and don't put it online cos u can't even say everything u want. for sharing your life with other ppl... well i've always thot that the details of my life are for me to tell people whom i wanna open up to and not for everyone to gain access to my life. thats why its a joint blog i guess... so we can still continue to share details of our lives even tho we might be separated. so that we will know what each other is still up to and know what each of us is thinking. that perhaps is the value of a blog... to keep each of us updated on our own lives so that we still know... and care. *ok i'm like getting really confused...wondered so far from the original topic liao. super hot here this place no fan one... now supposed to be winter but dono today's just stuffy ugh*

mm my dad just talked to me so ugh kinda lost my train of thought... not in the mood anymore.

one thing i guess i really regret about graduation is that i missed getting to know some of the nicer people. getting from strangers to friends needs quite a bit of opportunity and pity that the opportunity has been wrenched away.

to conclude (ugh feels like some disgusting geog essay...), i'm rather mood swing so sometimes say one thing then sometimes say different thing next time... and maybe i didn't even get my msg across i dono. i'm just floundering around and talking nonsense about my half-thought-thru theories and ugh dono what i'm doing. AHHHHHHH spouting nonsense i go sleep liao good night sweet dreams.

*keep thinking of all the repercussions this post might cause but aiyar shall heck and just press the publish button...

MeL stepped on your garbage at 10:21 PM