..Ben, Ben, Cal, Mel..

hmm

Lol! I can hear your soprano voices resonating in my mind.. so damn funny. Haha hmm yea guess i won't be joining band. Sorry k? I've been pondering over this for like.. the past month and all. Yea blogged about it frequently in b3.. not because i don't trust u all or anything! But cos it's like, too intricately linked to you guys and it just felt extremely awkward for me to type everything here. But most definitely, i owe an explanation to all you guys. It's not a rash decision or anything.. Please try to understand.. You guys are truly some of the best people i've met in my life thus far. And it's been really really REALLY fun playing mahjong movie marathoning staying over plus band practices sectionals slacking running about in band room throwing destroying stuffed toys inscribing our names shamelessly on band room walls scattering clarinet pig beads around the world blah blah EVERYTHING. It'll be so difficult to part with all this.

Yet we're already in jc. I've always wanted to try new stuff and all, but never got around to start. Lack of will, determination... energy.. This is like, something that i've really thought about for the past month. Band rocks yea.. but if i join, it'll be for you guys, definitely. And this seems quite selfish but sigh.. hope you guys will respect my decision :< .. and understand that it's not a simple 'im tired of band, and hence im gonna abandon it for other stuff'. It goes beyond that.. Many experiences.. time spent thinking through.. I will MISS everyone.. MISS the concerts.. MISS the syf.. MISS the fooling around.. MISS the feeling of playing as a united band creating beautiful music together with oura and MISS all the times that we're gonna spend as a band. It kinda hurts yea.. Sigh.. but i've made my choice.. Luv ya'll. Don't worry i will go for all ur concerts~~~~~ lol.. yea.. cya

ben stepped on your garbage at 6:21 PM