..Ben, Ben, Cal, Mel..

sobz damn tired... help got headache!!!

WAAA super mega tired tmr sure muscles ache. dance is already quite demanding... then some more got PE in the afternoon. then cos of PE i had so little life during dance also... and zz screwed up the latin audition (there's latin, hip hop and movie medley).

ok i got a lot of things to say... not really a lot lar but just my usual crap. but then zz can't think properly now... shall take a nap... headache yux.

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zz jiu ming arh woke up and my headache was even worse. someone took a hammer and whacked me and i'm reeling from e impact... but then had to force myself out of bed to see my 9 oclock show. 3rd last episode!!!!! oh my gosh la its so nice... yes finally ann kok is exposed. the mother is the most poor thing lar... blow after blow feel so sad... then stoopid jeslin tay also refuse to accept thomas ong -.- feel so sad for thomas ong. see la watch this show everything also sad watch to become sad watch for wad zz... but so super nice lor.

anyway yes got quite a bit of work today... prepare for ki essay tmr plus reading my lit stuff. luckily my headache gradually decrescendoed (lolz wat kind of shit word is dat) until i can work a bit now... if not i was just thinking of going to sleep immediately after the show. oh yes wanted to share a bit about our ki lesson...

we had a discussion about self. btw lemme comment on the teacher. she's like e din of academic studies so lolz yes super big shot and powerful... rather scary also actually but then so far not really any major outburst yet. but then, like most of e philo teachers we've had, she has a really irritating habit of sticking to her own stand and twisting our answers to her stand and adding subtle hints to support or not support some stand that we agree on. i mean... ok definitely ppl sure come up with a stand but if u become so fixed that u refuse to see e light of a more logically sounder argument then bleh... quite crappy arh esp since u're a teacher after all. and they keep telling us about being open-minded.

but sometimes a bit inevitable. we formulate our own theories... things that we feel secure in. and we build a comfort zone around ourselves... and so anything that comes our way we try to twist it so that it fits our theories, instead of using it to formulate our theories. in dat sense, everything suddenly becomes not so clear... cos we're behind a veil of our prejudices everytime we view something. tot of giving u guys an example but then decided against it... i'm sorta against examples in philosophy cos they often reveal only a narrow aspect of the theory, but then of course quite impossible to do without the support of examples.

ANYWAY, we were discussing about the idea of self. things like "wat's self, can a comp get a self, do animals have selves?" stuff like that. ended up with a few interesting qns (at least for me lar)... wat differentiates us from animals? and... if someday there were computers advanced enough to learn and to make logical deductions and attain self-awareness (stuff like terminator... which is extremely good movie series. and dune... lolz very good novel series also), wat differentiates them from us then?

aiyar actually i think u guys won't be interested with this shit so lolz i shall just skip it. but ki's really rather interesting except that there's not really enough time for full scale discussions. oh yes... we had our mock napfa for pe today. so horrible below average for every single event. so embarrassing but then mm i know all these are all just first impressions. i'm not feminine but i'm not manly either (e model guy = tall, dark, handsome, sporty, fit etc). i was always smallest in class so yep learnt to live with these kind of things long time ago. just that for 4 years... it's been a while since first impressions mattered so much. and now everyone's so eager to be part of e trend. just consoling myself that in a few months time, everything will settle, first impressions will be shattered and all that matters will be character and personality.

we have a class outing this fri... couldn't go cos i tot we were celebrating bday with aunty anula (btw it's aunty anula's 10th year anniversary!!! she literally watched me grow up!)... but it turned out we'e going for lunch instead. so yep skipping my class outing. a bit guilty but then... hmm so rare that got hol... and besides, got many more opportunities to get closer to e class (2 years leh) but rare to find common time slots to spend with other ppl. e more i get to know e class tho, e more i like e ppl that are there... really glad that they're gonna be my classmates for 2 years (lolz scully in a few months i'm saying a totally different thing - first impressions.)

is e post like super long? i think it is... shall go off and sleep soon. gotta wake up damn early tmr (5.45) cos my dad playing golf or something. he's back until after chi new year. mm tata everyone... enjoy e rest of e week. there's lit tmr!!

MeL stepped on your garbage at 7:32 PM