..Ben, Ben, Cal, Mel..

so pissed with my bro

zz i was so freaking pissed off this morning... but anyway lemme talk abt e past few days first.

went out on fri with my pri schoolmate (p1-3) elson. we went to watch cry_wolf... it's about a game... like mafia actually but then this time there's money involved so yes it's super duper cool and everyone's lying and backstabbing and lolz feel like trying it out sounds so fun. of course later it turns to murder and all that but that's cos of this evil person. talking nonsense la...

went to try out pool with him after that... i just realized we have pool tables in our club... so bleh went to go try out. strange game... then after that we went for dinner and went to borrow ring and ring 2. he stayed overnight to watch but we ended up watching matrix instead of ring 2 cos we got freaked out after ring. slept around 3... altho i was drifting between sleep and wake and thinking of samara yucks first time a horror movie affected my sleep. maybe it's just cos i was sleeping on the pullout bed which is a lot more uncomfortable. :)

left early in the morning (uh around 8) to go for my cip with the catechists and the class. i think it was something like batchgive?? a little more productive (from what i heard) tho cos we went inside to clean the houses, and brought foodstuff and all that. there was this house that we went in... waa seriously like a junkyard. gosh his maggi chilli bottle had like black stuff inside... and the whole house is just a pile of collected items that he didn't want us to touch, move and definitely not throw. so yes all his containers and expired stuff we had to secretly just take it while he wasn't looking and throw away. lolz oh we were cleaning near his stove and moved his thermos flask when a small lizard crawled out. actually right a lizard's movement shouldn't be crawl cos they move so freaking fast... anyway we got a shock and panicked and knocked the thermos flask onto the floor... and it popped open and scalded my foot with hot water. think it wasn't very hot tho cos it's like ok already but the burn did last for a few hours. oh did i mention that the bottom of the flask had rotted off already and he used plastic bags to keep the water inside the flask... so yes that was the worst la... quite a few of them didn't even want us to go inside so yea we left them alone...

that evening (it's sat btw), me my bro elson and someone else (elson knows my bro cos they were both in maris stella) went to watch v for vendetta. really good movie that you'll should catch... yup ok.

now this morning, i was thinking of going for this youth group meeting (that my bro always encouraged me to), cos i didn't have cat class. in the end i decided not to... just din't feel like going and felt like watching matrix (and maybe there're other deeper or even more superficial reason which i didn't think thru). so yup my bro flaired up at me... and now that i think about it i still dont' know really why altho he said it had to do with something about me wanting something and not going for it and wad?? don't ask me. so yes that was how the argument started... and of course how an argument started is usually not what an argument is about... it just escalates to things we've been keeping inside and yup we just argued about stuff i can't even remember now. i've never been able to win my bro in an argument... he talks and thinks too fast and sometimes he says things that are hard to grasp and they sound so cheem and it takes a while to rebut and that period of time spent thinking means u've lost e argument. he always maintains that it's not about winning or losing in an argument but in situations like this, when everyone's heated and frustrated, does anything else matter apart from pride? can u even keep pride out of it? and my bro sounded so self-righteous and all that and i couldn't think of a way to say anything and so yes felt so lousy and ARGH-feeling. and after that, he did his usual thing of apologizing... but i decided to remain pissed with him instead of usually cooling down cos i wanted to make an impact and so we argued again!!! so lovely -.- and of course he said his usual "you always argue because you just don't want to be wrong. why can't you be wrong? arguing for the sake of arguing..." and his line of reasoning that is so hard to counter cos if i say something along those lines it'll seem so silly and aiya zhong zhi i can't win him in an argument. then after everything is blown up and we're eating in macs he says sorry. like wow ok things are supposed to be ok now that u've apologized and i can just dismiss my frustration. it's so easy for e winner to apologize and just happily put yourself down already... of course already win wad u know u've won.

aiya bitch forever if he reads this he also sure kp. lolz like that time i used his phone to send a msg abt him being stingy to benny... he came back to me shortly after and said "if you wanna bitch about ppl make sure they don't find out" and walked off again. but don't think he reads our blog much.

MeL stepped on your garbage at 1:08 PM