..Ben, Ben, Cal, Mel..

treasure life...

sigh yes yes... such an un-realized quality: enjoying and treasuring the time we have. it's a pity that so few of us truly realize how short our time is. 5 months have passed... does it seem fast to u'll? it seemed to flash past me. i feel as if i'm struggling to hold the reins on time and fill my time up with meaningful things to do so that at the end of this year, i know that i've accomplished some things.

and no mistake we only have this year... next year is a levels don't think i really wanna clog up next year with anything much. after a's will be army... which is just plonk a total interruption of 3 years. it's as if life is put on hold for 3 years... except after 3 years we'll just be rusty in everything we do. all the skills we learn and treasure bleh wonder wat will happen to them after army. flute, dota, essay, thinking seriously wonder whether they'll just all erode away. ugh.

feel it's quite amazing how i'm scrambling to make the most out of it... to treasure whatever youth i have left... while others are all grown up already. the people who are so focused on their work and concerned about the problems of society and other important nonsense. despite the respect i have for these vessels of maturity, i pity them for not feeling what people like us feel: the exuberance of youth. think it's a major part of the reason why i gave up so much leadership opportunities... cos they'll just drain the fun. and fun just gets more elusive as we get older doesn't it... in jc already there's just so little time to bond. feel that my classmates are just a little more than acquantances... thank god for the friends i had before jc then.

sometimes we have to reflect... 17 years of our life. just exactly what have we done?

MeL stepped on your garbage at 11:23 PM